I was studying until I have fallen asleep and woken up by this kind of weird dream...

I walked out from my room and a lady and 2 girls approached me. The lady was holding a metal (I guess...?) stick and she wanted to go into my room. I refused to let them in but she insisted. She pushed me away but she didn't go into my room. She stood beside the door and read out some spells before she left and the 2 girls just followed her. I wasn't sure what spell that she read. I just feel that it was terrifying and I still feel the fear even if I am awake now...

I then went to the toilet and wanted to take a shower. There were 3 girls were showering with their doors opened. I was shocked the minute I saw that and I wanted to leave. Suddenly one of the girl splashed me with water and my whole body became wet. I scolded her and thought that she will stopped splashing me with water. To my horror, the 3 girls walked out from the bathroom and they were walking towards me. Their size suddenly became so giant and looked like those guys in WWF tournament. One of the girls was holding a glass piece and saying that it had been a long time since she last scratched people's face. She walked towards me and she raised her arm that holding the glass piece. I was scared and screaming for help. I used my towel to cover my face but it was too late. She was in front of me and managed to scratch my forehead with her glass piece. My forehead was bleeding and I was crying. 3 of them grinned broadly and I managed to escape somehow. My forehead still bleeding and I was shouting for help. Nobody seemed be willing to help. Suddenly, I saw a policeman! I quickly ran to the policeman and hoped that he could help me. He was holding a guy with the guy's handcuffed (might be a criminal suspect I supposed). Out of sudden there was crowd around there and everyone was shouting "Selamat! Selamat!..." Mas Selamat has been found?! ...I ran to the policeman and told him that I was attacked by 3 girls. The policeman went to find the 3 girls and they had a fight. The "Selamat" was then escaped. I wasn't so sure how the story ended as I was awake then...

What a weird dream...I guess this might be because of there are too much things happened recently and I am sort of feeling insecure. There was a night when the fire alarm suddenly rang. Usually I don't bother about the fire alarm. But suddenly somebody knocked at my door and I was shocked. I jumped down from my chair and quickly opened the door. It was my neighbour and she told me it was the fire alarm on our level that was ringing. I was so scared and my tears dropped. I wasn't crying. Even the sound of lightning will make my tears drop too. I just feel that I am very scared when I am alone. I didn't know how to do when certain things happened. I am alone and I need to be strong. I have to protect myself but I can't take so much things sometimes. I have to settle everything myself. When I can't cope with that, I will just sit down and cry. I feel that myself is useless. I just can't be strong...

The more I write, the more emo I will be. Anyway, this shall be the last post before my exam I guess...I am in the midst of preparing for my exam which will be started next week. Tonnes of strezzzzz... >.< I wish I will do well in this exam. Good Luck and all the best for myself and my friends too. Isshoni Ganbaruyo! (Let's ganbatte together!)

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《不是情書》‧愛情如此兒戲

“女生流著淚問我，為甚麼男人會如此絕情、如此不負責任，就連分手也不能好好說個清楚？受傷的女人心很痛，苦苦追問卻得不到一個答案，就這樣讓女人的心在血流不止，為何男人可以如此忍心？

是的，男人看起來堅強穩重，實質上是不會處理感情問題的小孩子。他們接受了女人的愛，享受了許多的關懷與溫柔，到最後卻發現自己不愛了，或是根本沒有愛過，男人開不了口說分手，只好逃避。

女人為男人付出許多許多，越付出就愛得越深，男人是知道的。可是喜新厭舊的男人總在追求新鮮感，當感情穩定下來的時候，男人的心就蠢蠢欲動，吃在碗裡，眼睛瞟向另一個充滿魅力的女人。

要如何拋棄原有的那個？男人知道自己很賤格，卻不想被人說是現代陳世美，所以滿口仁義的說：“我知道自己不適合妳，沒有能力給妳幸福，妳是一個好女人，別再為我浪費時間，妳一定會找到一個更好的男人。”

女人不甘心，如果男人覺得自己不夠好，為甚麼不改過？既然你明知自己不好，為何當初要追求我，信誓旦旦說要給我幸福？現在我深愛著你，不能離開你，你明知我不會在意你的缺點，為何要如此傷害我？

女人不願無端端失去一段感情，不願讓自己的青春和肉體就在毫無徵兆的情況下白白糟蹋，她苦苦追問，其實還懷抱著一絲絲希望，但願找出問題所在，挽回這段感情。

男人面對一連串的問題，通常是抱持沉默。他講不出口：“其實當初追妳是貪圖妳青春，想嚐嚐鮮。越難追的女生越有成就感，越難泡的女生越有征服感，越漂亮的女生越有優越感，追到手之後，才發覺不過如此，而且妳真的很煩。”

男人不敢把真相說出口，是為了在女人的心目中保持良好的形象，但他卻不知道，沒有作出好好交代的分手，會讓女人更受傷。

女人看著沉默不語的男人，她永遠都不能明白，愛情為何如此兒戲，愛情原來這麼傷。

女人說，如果每個男人都是這樣，要她以後如何相信男人與愛情？她還年輕，但她傷痛的心千瘡百孔，餘生要如何擺脫陰影？

我說，千古以來，無數人都信仰愛情，現在的妳，只是還沒遇上真正的愛情。妳受過的傷，會在真愛來臨的時候獲得撫慰與治癒。”

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曾听人这么说过：两个人可以在一起，是因为缘份。缘份非常奥妙，两个人若是有缘份的话，就算距离是天涯海角，缘份都可以把两个人牵系在一起。

我觉得，爱情并没有所谓的谁对谁错，不论是男人或女人，因为爱情是靠两个人一起去经营的。只要两颗心真心相爱，就可以开开心心幸幸福福过下半辈子。真正爱过，付出过，便无怨无悔...

不过，真爱难寻...

I just couldn’t believe this kind of thing will happen in NUS, the place where the people here are educated.

The story goes like this. It was a Saturday morning and as usual, I will do my laundry and tidy up my room. Everything was fine after I put my clothes had been finished washing and I put my clothes into the drying machine and came back to my room. It normally takes 40 minutes for the clothes to dry and usually I will go down after 40 minutes, the most 45 minutes, to collect my clothes so that my clothes won’t be taken out by other people in case they want to use it. So, as usual, I went down to take my clothes after 40 minutes. To my dismay, I found that my jeans inside were disappeared the minute I opened the cover of the drying machine! My 3 new jeans! Oh my god…My clothes weren’t really dried and I inferred that the machine was stopped by people before my clothes dried and stole away my jeans! Without much procrastination, I went to launch a report at the office. The office staff assured me and said that they will look seriously into this matter and will investigate it immediately. They promised to give me a call on that day and asked me to go back and wait as I was not allowed to go to watch the CCTV. I couldn’t understand why I was not allowed to watch the CCTV because I think I could recognize my own jeans if I were to see that in the CCTV. But it was perfectly okay that I wasn’t allowed to watch as long as they could help me to find back my jeans and take action to that fellow.

So I was waiting. 3 hours had passed but I didn’t receive any call from them. I decided to call to the office and asked about the progression of the investigation. After a while a guy answered my call. He was the FCC guy. (FCC will take over residents matter after the management office is closed) To my dismay again, the guy told me that the office was closed and he didn’t receive any order from the management office for this case. He said I would have to wait until Monday and check with the management office. It was really disappointing. The matter was not investigated immediately at the first moment and they just made the empty promise to me. I could do nothing about it but just to wait for Monday to come.

And here comes Monday, which is today. I called the office in the morning and talked to the staff that spoke to me on Saturday. But it was really surprising that she was like forgotten about everything that couldn’t remember that there was this case happened on Saturday! I was like, you want me to tell the story again?! She passed the call to another guy, whom I think was the manager. I told him the whole story again and he promised me the same thing again. He said he will call me after 1 hour and asked me to wait. So I was waiting again. This time round, he really called after 1 hour. I picked up the call and this was what he said:

“We didn’t receive any clothes returned by students till date. We couldn’t help much and we are sorry about that.”

I was like, you have CCTV, don’t you? I have given enough information such as the time range of occurrence and my clothes colour and in fact everything which I think more than enough for them to investigate! They told me that they will investigate and this is the way they investigate? Sit there and wait for the person to return my jeans to them? They thought that fellow will return my jeans to them if he/she found that the jeans were just too tight or too big for him/her? They were just treating me like a fool! I always think that Singapore people work with high efficiency but this has proven that I was wrong. Their efficiency is just like the efficiency of the police in other country in some part of the world! I was so disappointed…

There was another victim this morning. The victim pasted notice in front of the lift saying that her clothes were being stolen too. If the management office still refuses to look into this matter, there will definitely more victims in future.

My poor new jeans…I wonder what the fellow is doing to my jeans now…so sad =(

由刘德华，洪金宝和Maggie Q 主演的《三国志之见龙卸甲》，我看了！=）我一向来对三国演义很感兴趣，看了这部戏，真的好开心。哈哈！

刘德华饰演赵子龙英姿非凡, 太有型了! 赵子龙名言：我自己的命运，掌握在自己的手中。为了让世界和平，百姓有好日子过，他打了一场有一场的仗，却一场也没有输过。因此刘备封他为“长胜将军”。可惜的是他打了三十多年的仗，世界却从来也没有和平过，战争依然继续。他打的第一场败仗，也是他打的最后一场仗。这场仗之所以会输，是因为属国收买了罗平安（洪金宝），答应让他做将军。因此为了个人利益，他答应了属国出卖赵子龙，是个卖国贼。赵子龙被自己的大哥出卖，兵卒战死沙场，看了令人甚感痛心。

依稀记得中学时候华语老师为我们讲解名句精华时说的《三国演义》故事，每一段都很精彩，因此对《三国演义》深感兴趣。好久以前就想要读完整套的故事了，不过这故事实在是太长了，很多册，很多章，而且是文言文，很难懂。白话文翻译了的就比文言文来得更厚了。一向来不会看书的我，肯定看不到三面就关书了。呵呵…所以我还是希望有人“精通”《三国演义》的可以将整套故事讲给我听。=P

自己的命运，掌握在自己的手中！

First of all, Happy Birthday to myself! haha
Secondly, happy Birthday to this blog too! I opened this blog on my birthday last year and now it is 1 year old le...

I'm now 22. I'm an adult now. (In fact I was an adult since last year. :p)

Thanks for my friends who were celebrating with me on Saturday. Thanks for the surprise that you all have given me. Although it was a combined birthday celebration, I really appreciate that. I had a good time with you all.

Thanks for my course mates that celebrated with me too. You all really surprised me in the lecture hall! I didn't expect that at all! And thanks for the present too. I like that and will treasure it a lot. I am glad to have you all as my course mates.

Thanks for those who sms and leave message in msn for me. Thanks mummie for your sms too =) And thanks for those that commented in friendster and facebook too. Thank you everybody! ^________^