I thought I will be alone for the Christmas Eve this year. Luckily I was not. I am happy that I have them to accompany me, always...

Had a cheerful night out with cf and tp this evening, and with ky and tp last night. So glad that we are still together, even though we haven't seen each other for quite some times..

I suggested to exchange Christmas Present since it's Christmas Eve ! And I got a present from cf, it's a cute handphone strap!! Very nice =)
(Pictures will be uplaoded soon...We took loads of pictures! )

I feel so so happy coz I am not alone for Christmas!!

Merry Christmas to all my friends!
Wish everyone happy everyday and enjoy every moment in our lives.

It will be the loneliest Christmas that I will ever had since I came to Singapore.

It is not the same as before. Friendship really gets weaken after friends graduated and started to work.

I really don't like loneliness.

I wish I could meet my special one soon and have a lovely Christmas. (Mom starts to hint me to get a boyfriend now. Well mom, I wish to have one too! Just that I haven't met the one.)  =)

Feng Shui forecast for year 2010 also says that Tiger will meet their love ones next year. Heee :P

Merry Christmas ! 

this morning 17 Dec, 3.15am. somewhere in Perak.

小番薯 was a name that I used to have... some times ago..

I have finished my exams today and I cleaned up by desktop and external hard disk drive. I found this picture which I took some times ago when I was housekeeping my bedroom.. and it reminds me of someone..

It's a picture of Potato. Cute, isn't it?

We used to call each other 大番薯 and 小番薯. I was 小番薯 and he was 大番薯. hahha =D

And another picture,

A happy 'family'

A thing that I am not sure whether I should keep, or throw away..

Ok, I know I shouldn't think about this anymore, it's just something that I see and they remind me of him, that's all.. nothing else..

It's time to sleep, tomorrow have to go to lab and cast my column.

I really wish that Mr Choo could let me cast tomorrow, so that I can go back home.

Sometimes I really don't know how to communicate with the lab people.

Conflicts keep arising and I have to talk to them repeatedly and to different person, and yet things turn out to be the wrong one, and they are deemed to be my fault! wth..

Nevermind, one more semester to go. After next semester then I can say 'buh-bye' to them already...

It has been a month I left this blog untouched and today I am coming back to blog about my inspiration today.


Yes! I wanna open my own cake house!

Mocha cake from Bengawan Solo =)

Why? coz I like cakes a lot. I can't stop myself from seeing those beautiful and nicely decorated cakes everytime I pass by Bengawan Solo. I think the cakes in Bengawan Solo are the most beautiful one, and they are nicer too =)
I like to bake cakes too. I like to see the cake especially when they come out from the oven and look good! and I know that yes! I can make it! And I like to see people eating my cakes! hahaha.. Pardon me if the cakes were not nice, I will make it better next time =)

What? Other than cakes, I like Chocolates a lot too. So I will be making lots of different kinds of chocolates in my cake house too. So my cake house will have a concept consisting cakes and chocolates. Hmz.. have to think about this. I'm gonna make it a really interesting one.
And a confirm thing, my cake house won't be selling any bread, it will not be like BreadTalk.

How? Well, I am still not too sure about this. As I have to earn enough money first before I can really open my cake house.
This brings me to another question - When?
I will come out with a plan for this, I have a lot of factors have to be factored in.

Who? Myself! and with my future husband if he is willing to do it together with me. ^_^ And of course, I welcome new ideas! If you are interested or have any ideas, feel free to let me know hahas..

Where? This is a very important question. Will it be in Singapore? Or in Malaysia? Or other countries? But I havent travelled to other countries till date. I wish to find out more about the cake house concepts in European countries, like France. I may bring back their concepts and the most importantly is the people here able to accept the ideas. I wanna make it a different thing here.

Ok, this will be my ultimate goal. I will be doing this when I want to settle down in my life.
It's not practical to talk about any plan right now, as I don't have a concrete plan yet. So this will be the next thing that I'm gonna do after my exam. I wish to achieve this as soon as possible, probably before I reach 30. ^__^

Talking about cakes, and I am craving for cakes right now ~

A nice voice to hear, 寂寞光年 by 刘力扬, a female singer from China (though her name doesn't sound like a girl's one, Haha)

It's the theme song of the Singapore Drama Series "The Ultimatum" (双子星). It's a great Singapore production and its standard can be deemed to be up to the par of Hong Kong TVB drama series. It's in my next-to-watch list! =)

It is actually quite a sad song, about a lonely person who wishes to be cared by someone. Somehow, I feel like I am like the person that she sings - a person that looks tough at outside, but actually vulnerable inside.

有时会想要有个人可以让我依赖，
一双宽厚的肩膀让我依靠，
在我需要的时候支持我，
给我温暖的拥抱，
手牵着手，
一起分享生活中的喜怒哀乐，
一直到老。

一直等待着，
一个对的人...

是谁从我天空摘走了星星
一转眼 眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己横行
忘了我也值得被关心

一双手一个梦
一路上不断的俯冲
痛到忘了要怎么喊痛

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹

是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴
天灰了 快乐总有限期
从来都陷在孤独的流沙里
忘了我也配被人在意
一个人一直走看着梦像做了又空
精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想有拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹
那是谁的温柔留在我的小手
微不足道却那么重

漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没
整个世界是沉默的漩涡
有谁能陪我手牵着手出走
带我离开空洞的星球

还有什么值得追求
还有什么可以拥有
把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖
有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁
能让我相信被爱的理由

883Jia FM used to be my favourite radio station at all time. I used to tune in to its online streaming every night when I was studying. Nice to have it to accompany me through my last 2 years of study here.
Sadly, it's online streaming is no longer available now due to some licensing problem.
After many times of searching and switching from one station to another, I finally found this fantastic channel. It is just what I want!

Introducing HKGFM.net!
It has a lot of different channels and the channel that I like the most is Asia Hitz. It has songs ranges from Chinese to Japan and Korean, and it has one that 883Jia doesn't have, Cantonese! Perfect! So basically all songs from Taiwan, Malaysia, Singapore, Japan, Korea and Hong Kong can be found here. They are all songs of normally a Chinese will listen to. No English songs though, and no Malays too. Haha! Nice.

I like it so much and I will tune in whenever I turn on my lappy =)

Enjoy ~ if it interests you ~

This is also where I found this song 寂寞光年 by 刘力扬 which I will post in the next post.

Man in the Mirror was originally sung by the King of Pop - Michael Jackson and re-sung by Lee Hom.



I like the way Lee Hom incorporate the chinese intrument "Er-hu" in this music. The soothing "Er-hu" background further add in some "flavour" and make it nicer.
Lee Hom is such a talented artist! <3

I like this particular part:
"If you wanna make the world
A better place,
Take a look at yourself,
and then make a change"

Treat people the way you want to be treated. Ironically, we might not get the same treat back, but at least we have done our part. It's true that how people will treat us is beyond our control, but do not let this thinking refrains yourselves from being good to others. Imagine if everybody thinks in that way, how this world is going to be?

R.I.P MJ

My Professor asked me a very interesting question.

"Do you know what is air-supported structure?"
"Erm, no. I know water-supported structure."

"It's very simple. U know hot air balloon? It's an air-supported structure!"
"....., oh ok."

"Do you know that human is actually an air-supported structure too?"
"Uhh.. What?!" And my expression was like, o_o

Then he explained to me. Human is actually so called "air-supported", because we cannot stand with our skeleton alone. Our skeleton is actually supported by the air that we breathe in. The air that occupy our stomach and air that flowing in our blood in the form of Oxygen, are actually supporting our body.

I think this is a very interesting topic. I tried to search on the internet about this but I couldn't find anything that saying human is supported by air pressure in human body. Nevertheless, I think I believe that and I agree to him to a certain extent. Imagine how a single skeleton stands on its own?! It's not possible! We are not aware of that and we always think that we are supported by our skeleton. In fact skeleton needs to be supported by air as well.

Just like this.

..and this. An air supported house.

We talked about other things as well and I really gained a lot from our conversation. He is a very smart professor and he knows a lot. I think he must have read "万卷书" (10 thousands rolls - the books in the past were in rolls) Haha.. He knows not only Civil Engineering, but any other fields like science, maths, technology, programming, astronomy, religion etc. He is a "有智慧的老人家" =)

He said: "Don't always think in a conventional way. Think out of the box and you will discover something new. The world is changing. People must be innovative."

Continued from previous post: I don't want to be an evil person...

It was actually about the peer review form that I filled in for the design project. The peer reivew form is something that you evaluate the performance of your groupmates on their contribution in the project.

So what I did was I gave a bad review on my group leader. The group leader was actually pre-selected, but not through election by groupmates. So to me, I don't think my group leader is a good leader. She was not experienced in planning for execution of project and she actually annoyed me a lot with her questions that I think she was supposed to know, like project meeting time and who is supposed to in charge on what. These things are supposed to be planned by a leader, which I am not in this case. She didn't do her job well in coordinating us and we coordinated ourselves most of the time.

I almost rejected her in whatever she said and I really don't like her acting cute attitude in front of guys. yes, she is pretty but she likes to act cute. I just don't like pretty girls that like to act cute in front of guys. And the most important thing is, she didn't contribute much to the project. So, the result was I gave her bad comments on the peer review form.

But strangely, I didn't feel good at all after handing in the peer review form. I felt myself is like an evil person and trying to penalise her, and she might get poor grade because of that! I was feeling so bad... I think I shouldn't be so cared about her attitude as it will not have any consequences on me after all. Also, it was not her fault for being inexperienced to be a leader. This is her first time and she might do better for her second time. Though she didn't contribute much to the project, she indeed has contributed her part as well. So I really feel so bad for being that 'cruel' to her...

I decided to send email to my prof and explained to him about this, hoping that I could change the condition. I will definitely be blaming myself if I were the one that cause her grade to be low.
Finally my prof replied to my email already today. And I am happy that he said he will reconsider about it, and explained to me how they will use the peer review form. I am happy coz he didn't just ignore my email but still explain to me patiently. I really appreciate that...

I am feeling better now.. At least, I still manage to change the condition, like I am turning back time. Of course, I hope that I will think carefully when doing something, and don't always regret of the thing that I have done.

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Went for the first dance lesson today. I am aching all over again now.. I think it's because I overstretch my leg when doing warm up. The instructor came and pressed our back and I really felt my muscle being stretched and it was so painful!!! >.<''

I quickly applied Dr.Joint Pain after I came back. It works well in relieving muscle pain. I used that before after my volleyball training last time and my muscle pain really reduce a lot the next day. The pain that I am having right now is more serious that I had last time, and feel like swelling Arrgghhh :'(

The song that we learned today was "I Stay In Love' by Mariah Carey. It's a nice song =)

Got my pay today from my boss! Yay! It's SGD536 and I am so excited about it hahha
I was thinking to go and buy Toto just now and see whether my first pay will bring me luck to win or not today. Hehe! But I went to shopping at Bugis and didn't manage to catch a Toto outlet before 7pm. If I were to buy, I will put a 9 in front and make it 9536. Haha.. 9 is my mummie's lucky number :D
I have never tried buying Toto using my own money before, I only ever helped my mum to buy. How is the feel of stricking Toto ah? haha :P

Yeah, I went to Bugis after I got the paid and had a crazy shopping spree! Haha it was so exciting to shop at Bugis street coz the things there are simply too cheap! I only earn $536 today la.. SO can only go to Bugis, but not any other high end shopping centre.. Nevertheless, the level of happiness and satisfaction is enough for me to high until I sleep tonight! :P

Well, I bought 3 tops, 1 handbag, a handphone pouch, a necklace and a watch. The watch is very fancy and I like it very much, and it's only 5 dollars! lol.. Don't expect it to last very long, just thought that it's very special and it was the only piece on the rack when I saw that. So I quickly grab it without a second thought. :P

Nice right? hehe :P There are lots of smiling faces ^.^

I only spent 54 bucks out of 536 and get so many things back in my room! hahha Picture paints a thousand words. Here are the things that I have bought.. with 54 bucks!

I like the yellow top with the necklace very much! >.<

After getting the pay today, I will be stop working there already.. Will be very busy from next week onwards for FYP.. A bit sad :(

Bz Bz Bz.. Never ending busy life of year 4!
But I will still find way to enjoy my life hahah.. Will be going for another KTV session with classmates on this Sunday! Looking forward to Sunday Yay!! It will be another crazy night out yo! And it will only cost us 10 bucks for this session coz one of our friends has vouchers! Woohoo

I will be joining dance also this semester, start from tomorrow. Have to do some dancing to relieve the stress haha.. Looking forward to tomorrow as well! :D
But have to pay 100 bucks for 10 sessions! So effectively will be 10 bucks per session.
Hmz.. hope it will be a useful one to make my HARD earn money worth..

Arrgghh my $536 is now left with $436, further deduct $54 from shopping just now then it becomes $382. Have to fork out another $26 to buy safety boots for lab work somemore, and I am now left with $356! MONEY NOT ENOUGH!!! >.<

I have done something that makes me feel that i am an evil person.

I thought I am a noble person. I thought I won't do bad thing to others. But I did, and I just did. I don't know what I was thinking at that time. What I knew was I was annoyed with her attitude. I just don't like whatever thing that she says and does. I just can't accept her.

I don't know what impact will she have. I don't know whether she will know about that. What I know is that I don't feel good at all after I have done that!
If I were given a chance to turn back time, will I do that? I was wondering...
I was actually given a chance this morning that I could revert everything. But I did it again. I guess there must be something wrong inside me...

Now I really can't change anything anymore, there is no way I could turn back time.
After giving a careful thought to the problem, I think what she says and does didn't affect me much actually. Why would I care so much about that? Why I still did that to her?
I am afraid there will be somebody appears in the future and do the same thing to me, 'karma' people call it.

I am regret on what I have done now. Really, I am so sorry about that...
Why? Why am I keep regreting of the thing that I have done. I wish I could be more rational before doing thing.
Where is the angel? It seems like the evil dominates my thinking right now...

I don't wish to be evil... Really...

Stayed up until 5am in the morning yesterday to do my project, and yet there were so little things had been done! I hate my slow progression while doing things that need to be done urgently Grrr

Woke up at 10.30 am and will have lesson at 11am. I quickly jump off my bed and get my shower done. After showering and while I was combing my hair and OMG! I saw a white hair! I couldn't believe that! >.< I didn't dare to do anything to the white hair... I am afraid that it will worsen the condition. I heard people said that if you pluck a white hair, 2 more white hair will grow out. I am not sure how true it is, but I don't want to take the risk. I am only 23, and I don't want to have any white hair on my head!

How? How? How? I don't want a white hair at the age of 23!!! Is it because of stress? I promise I won't stress myself too much... White hair, can you go away? :(

I love my new bedsheet so so much!

Cute Sheep!!! ^__^

Baa baa black sheep
Have you any wool?
Yes sir, yes sir
Three bags full.
One for my master,
One for my dame,
And one for the little boy
Who lives down the lane.

Yes! Today is the day that my first deal closed! yay! So happy that I have my first customer already and my boss said that I have already broken my egg! LOL :P
(Well, if you do not understand what does that mean, egg basically means 0. So I will not have 0 deal for my first month! =))
Today is 1st of August! It marks a good start for my so called ''career''!! ^_^

Went to Joel's birthday celebration today at Harbour Front Centre for Dim Sum Buffet there. The food there actually not bad, but still not as good as the one that I had in Geylang, when I first visited Singapore about 4 years ago. Sadly, I cant rememer which restaurant was that. We followed a tour and I was still so blur to recognise places in Singapore during that time! >.< The fellow volleyballers at Harbour Front Centre! =)

Felt quite happy today with this gathering actually, managed to catch up with them after I went back home for 2 months. Also update a bit of gossips that happened in our team. hahhaha :P More couples coming up! =)

My school will start after next week, after the Singapore's National Day.
I have gotten my FYP project and it's about Self-Healing Concrete. My FYP will be starting next week, after I attend the presentation by Thao, the PhD student next Tuesday... I have 2 thesis to read before that to get an idea of what the project is about! OMG!!! I hate reading paperssssss
Doing research is so sienzzz... I dont like to do research... but no choice, every student must undergo this stage before graduating.
That's life! Haiz... :(

After next week, I have to juggle my time to fit in my studies as well as my working time. I have to manage well my time so that I don't have to sacrifice my working time, and at the same time manage my studies and FYP. I really like this job.. It's getting more fun and exciting after seeing there are actually many different types of cases that I have to understand and know how to manage it. There are still room for learning, and it gives me great satisfaction when people trust us and the deal is closed. Also, it enables me to explore my interest as well as capability in other fields besides engineering.
So yup, wish I could do it! Let's cross the fingers and wish for the best! =)

I was back to volleyball again yesterday! It was really excited to touch volleyball again after such a long time. I think there should be 3 months I havent been playing volleyball at all if I am not mistaken. Miss it so much! But then, my body is aching all over now..

I went to swim again this evening! Havent been swimming too for a long time, about 4 months? :P
Swimming really worsen the muscle pain on my arms and hips and thighs... :'(
I can do nothing better than sitting on the chair and facing my computer... Zzz
Haiz.. should play more sports next time. Should not be on hiatus for such a long time...

Put all the blame to my boss! He doesnt allow me to work today and tomorrow! Will go to work only on Monday... So I have to find my own activities to do... I dont want to go shopping, I dont feel like buying anything for the moment...
But still not bad. Met up with Ah Cheng today and had lunch at Jurong Point. A friend that I havent met for 3 years! A good chance to catch up though =)

My sentence very cui today, not in the mood of writing...
Alright, till here I stop! =)

Today is my first day working for my part time job in Loan Supermart. It is actually a mortgage consultancy firm and it was started up 3 years ago. Their major role is to help people to reduce their liability and save money with regards to their home loan with banks.

My job is basically to call customers and give recommendation on the most attractive interest rates that are offered by various banks in Singapore. If they want to apply for a new loan or refinance their existing loan, I will have to fix an appointment with them to collect documents from them. We are not selling any products here, so people tend to be more receptive to the idea as they don't have to fork out money from their own pocket. and the most importantly, our service is FOC! =)

I am actually quite happy that I came across this job as I get a chance to learn about home loan which I knew nothing about before. There are a lot of thing to learn and I have to learn it very fast! Luckily my boss is very nice and he is willing to teach me! ^_^ I guess it should be a great satisfaction when I have my own customers and I am helping people to save money. I am waiting for this chance to come in the near future! Though they seem hard for me at this stage, I will give my best to this job until I am independent enough to handle cases. And of course, at the same time, study well ^__^

P/S: So happy that I got my new pair of sportshoes today! It was sponsored by Amazeal for our Volleyfest ' 09.

This is specially designed for volleyball! =)

They are nice, aren't they? ^_^

Time flies, 2 months have passed and that means my vacation is ending. I am now back in Singapore and waiting to start my Final Year Project.

Sitting in my room, not sure whether there is anything that I can do other than surfing the net and blog about something. There are still 3 weeks before next term start. I wish I will be able to start my FYP earlier before the term start so that I won't be idling around and wasting time here.
Oops! No, I must start it before the term start, that's my purpose of coming back here so early. I can't waste my time here and do nothing. I might as well stay at home longer if like that.

I stayed at home for 2 months for this vacation. I guess I will hardly get a chance to stay at home for so long already after this. Next term, will be my final year. Yes. I am stepping into my fourth year in NUS! Time past so fast! I will be busy working for my FYP next year, as what seniors did. So I guess I will be like that too in my final year. I'm gonna miss home! :((((

This time back to my hometown, there are a few things that I am happy about.
Firstly, mummie said papa has changed a lot. Papa treats mummie better now and I can see that myself too. It makes me feel kind of relieve and I hope this condition would persist. ^__^
Granny has finished undergone surgery for both her knees. She can now walk without having to rely on a walking stick. Feel so happy seeing her becomes better and stronger day by day. ^__^
Sister is back from KL. She will be settling down in hometown and get a job there. Mummie and papa will have a companion and won't feel that lonely anymore. We are always not around them, and sis can take care of them now. Wish that sis will get a job soon! ^__^

For myself! I have learned to bake cakes and cookies! I baked a cake my papa for Fathers' Day and he was so delighted! Haha..
Unfortunately, I didn't capture a picture of that wor :((

But, I have pictures for cookies! Hee =)

they are nice oh :Pthis is for my cousin... He loves that a lot! ^__^

I wanna go out tomorrow! to meet my friends that have not seen for so long...
I will be wasting money again... Oww I am a bad girl... :((((

P/S: Listening to "会长大的幸福".. What a lovely song and romantic love!
浪漫，和贫富无关。是心让爱灿烂！

爱是送你会长大的幸福
用生命为你变魔术
永远被保护
牵手围着会长大的幸福
任它开花结果变大树
我们唱着歌 欢呼
爱是送你幸福
每天每天每天为你变魔术
永远被保护

终于
他和另一个她开始了

当我知道时
心里却有一种莫名的感觉
不懂得如何去形容
已经快两年了
一直以来还以自己已经放下了
现在才知道
原来这伤口
还会有点痛

记得那时他说是时间的问题
要兼顾工作与学业
没预备要开始新的一段感情
或许当时的那些话
只不过是当初想离开的借口而已

当时的我
傻傻的说会等他
当时的他
或许只在笑我笨吧

现在的她
我不懂是谁
只知道
他称赞她很漂亮

为什么
人与人之间的感情
可以如此脆弱
和一个人走得那么靠近
最后却可以只是插身而过

第一次面对感情
虽有很多甜蜜与快乐
但也有悲伤
或许这也称不上是什么第一次
因为我们连手也没牵过

我不会讨厌他
更不会恨他
恨一个人会累
或许是我的问题
是我不能让他有一股
想牵我的手的冲动
亦或许
是我们有缘无分
有很多或许
是我至今也还不能明白的或许

或许这样也好
我会比较容易放下
希望有一天
当我们在街上遇见时
还可以像朋友一样
向对方微笑问好

在这里
我衷心的祝福你
朋友
祝你幸福

Specially dedicated to my dearest Mummie, Happy Mothers' Day! ^__^



I am sorry that I can't celebrate with you today...
But, I will celebrate with you tomorrow when I back home!
I love you, Mummie! Happy Mothers' Day!

The exam style in university is different from primary and secondary school, which we cannot bring anything into the exam hall other than your brain.

In university, there are mainly 3 types of exam. One of which is the one that we are familiar with, Closed Book exam and the second one is its opposite, Open Book exam. Apart from that, there is a thing called helpsheet in the university, which is a piece of blank A4 paper, and you can write whatever you want on both sides and bring it to your exam.

I am taking Engineering Professionalism this semester and the exam is not Open nor Close Book. We are allowed to bring in this helpsheet to the exam. And guess what, this module is a very subjective one, lots of concepts and moral values, and the most important thing is the notes are all words! Without a single equation! And well, I have to do this helpsheet, by copying all these notes of the entire semester into 2 pages of A4 paper!

And now, this is my helpsheet...















Hehe Cannot take too near.. coz my handwriting cannot make it hahha and might be taken as copyright infringement also :p

Spent 6 hours to do this! My half day gone!

The only thing that I hope now is this thing will be utilized to its max tomorrow. So that it really serves its purpose as a "Helpsheet" and help me hahha :P

Ok, I should back to my past year paper now =)

Be right back...

It was raining just now and the sky turned reddish blue after the rain. A beautiful rainbow arched across the sky right outside my window...
See the reddish blue sky after the rain.. but can barely see the shape of the rainbow only simply because my SE camera is not powerful enough... sob sob :'(
but trust me, it was much nicer than this in real..
The sky turned blueish...
Purplish..
and it turned dark...I just realised how fast the sky turns dark in dusk...
It was just 4 minutes after the first picture was taken...
It reminds me of a chinese proverbs 夕阳无限好，只是近黄昏。

I like the sky... ^__^
How nice if I could lie on the meadows and watch the sky...
Wish to see sunrise and sunset...

知道为什么情人节是2 月14 日吗？
因为情人节 是祝福2 个人，1 生14 在一起。

愿全天下有情人终成眷属，
情人节快乐！
Happy Valentines' Day!